I have a phobia that I am going to have to face tomorrow morning. I have dental phobia and I am having a root canal tomorrow morning. I've had people asking me what happened in the past that caused me to have this dental phobia and I can't recall any specific event. I can remember growing up and having bad teeth so I had to have a lot of cavities filled. It may be hearing the sound of the drill when I was having the cavity fixed. It could have been the needle that was used to inject the novacaine, who really knows.
Since turning 18 I have avoided the dentist as much as possible. At first my excuse was that I had no dental insurance. Then when I got dental insurance I thought that I was okay so I didn't need to see the Dentist. Then about 5 years ago I made an appointment for a cleaning and then ended up having some cavities filled and a root canal done. Then I stopped going to the Dentist, and this was about the time that I started dating Steve.
I've been avoiding the Dentist still but now I can't procrastinate any longer. I have a tooth on my bottom left side of my mouth that is broken, sensitive to heat and cold and painful the chew food with. Then on the bottom right side I have a tooth that is also broken (but not as bad as the left side) and it has recently become sensitive to heat and cold (still not as bad as the left tooth) and painful to chew food with.
I made an appointment with a Dentist and went for the visit this past Monday. They did x-rays and checked my teeth and told me that both problem teeth need root canals done on them and that I should do them about 2 weeks apart. Then he asked if I wanted the cleaning done that day since they would be putting cold water and bursts of air during the cleaning on my teeth - which may hurt the two that need the work. I agreed to wait until after the root canals are completed so that the cleaning wont hurt. If the routine cleaning hurts then I may be more unlikely to return for the routine services that I need to do.
Wish me luck...I'll be nervous/scared/terrified/weepy/anxious/etc. tomorrow until the root canal is completed.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Saturday, March 13, 2010
What a night!
I went out to dinner tonight with my best friend, Andrea. We went to the Cheesecake Factory (it was awesome). On the way out we both needed to stop at the restroom. I held our take home food while Andrea went to the bathroom and then she held them while I went. Right as I'm about to wipe the lady in the stall next to me starts barfing!!! I have a weak stomach and I had a difficult time not barfing too. I couldn't get out of that bathroom fast enough.
Since Andrea and I had gone out Steve decided to stay overnight at his parent's house (he was up in Ogden picking up Hunter for our weekend). After dinner I decided that we shouldn't see a movie tonight like we had planned. Andrea has to work tomorrow morning at 5:30 and we were at dinner later than I expected. I got home a little after 8 and decided that I didn't want to spend the night alone so I called up my sister and invited her over. Within a 90 minutes Missee and Violet were at my house to hang out with me. We started out by watching "17 Again" (Missee actually said Zac Efron was hot!!!!) and now we're watching "Hush" - 2 movies we watched last time she spent the night! Boy we are predictable but at least we're having fun.
Since Andrea and I had gone out Steve decided to stay overnight at his parent's house (he was up in Ogden picking up Hunter for our weekend). After dinner I decided that we shouldn't see a movie tonight like we had planned. Andrea has to work tomorrow morning at 5:30 and we were at dinner later than I expected. I got home a little after 8 and decided that I didn't want to spend the night alone so I called up my sister and invited her over. Within a 90 minutes Missee and Violet were at my house to hang out with me. We started out by watching "17 Again" (Missee actually said Zac Efron was hot!!!!) and now we're watching "Hush" - 2 movies we watched last time she spent the night! Boy we are predictable but at least we're having fun.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Two years (warning - may be disturbing)
Two years ago today, I spent most of the day in the ER at Lakeview Hospital. Two years and 1 day ago I was pregnant with my first child, the next day I wasn't. It was a very hard thing for me to go through. I almost bled to death and they were going to give me a transfusion but they didn't have to (luckily).
I woke up that morning and noticed that I was bleeding a lot. I woke up Steve and we drove to the hospital (with me sobbing the entire way). I called work before we left home to leave a message for my boss to let her know I would not be in that day. Once in the ER I had to change into a gown and when I took my pants off more blood fell out (it had been sitting in my garments). That only made me dry harder and Steve went to get someone to help. I called my mom and told her that I was losing the baby and then I couldn't handle talking anymore so I said good-bye and hung up.
They had me have an ultrasound so they could see what was left in the uterus. Then the ER Doctor came and examined me and said that the uterus was closed so they would just have the OB on call check me out and then I could go home. Even though they told me I could go home they wouldn't let me eat or drink anything just in case I needed surgery. My mom and dad came to the ER right after my ultrasound. My dad stayed for about 10-20 minutes and then left to go back to work.
The OB came in and saw me and said everything looked good. He checked the ultrasound report and said that it looked like everything was okay so I would be able to go home soon. He also asked me who my OB was and I explained that my OB left her practice to go to the U of U and she was no longer seeing patients (I think she was doing research and or teaching). He told me that he would be my doctor if I wanted to see him. Prior to this I had only seen female OBs and had a thing against seeing a male OB. Dr. Ward changed my mind about that. I really liked him and he is now my OB, even though he is located in Bountiful and I live in Sandy (hopefully the 20 minute drive wont be hard when I'm in labor).
Right before they were going to send me home I sat up in the hospital bed (I had been laying back trying to be as comfortable as possible). I felt a gush of blood coming out and started feeling dizzy. Dr. Ward told me that I looked really pale (a real feat for me as I am usually pale). He decided at that time that (since the bleeding hadn't stopped) I would need a D&C. Luckily I hadn't had anything to eat or drink and the OR had an opening so they could get me in for the surgery within 20 minutes.
I was taken to the OR and put under anesthesia, the next thing I knew I was being moved from the operating table to the hospital bed. They wheeled me to the recovery room where I stayed for a little bit - until I stopped feeling groggy from the anesthesia. Then I was taken to a Same Day Surgery room where Steve and my mom were waiting. Dr. Ward had talked to them after the surgery was completed (and I was still waking up) and told them that there was an orange peel-like thing still in my uterus and that was why I was still bleeding. My body was trying to expel it but since it wouldn't come out I continued to bleed.
After being in the room for a little bit the nurse came in and gave me something to eat (small package of graham crakers) and a drink. Then she asked if I needed to use the bathroom and I did so I got up and walked to the bathroom. Then I got dressed and they let me go home.
When we got home, around 3, there was a basket of flowers on our doorstep from my co-workers (I called my boss while in the ER and let her know what was going on). I walked to the couch and sat down as Steve asked me what I needed. I needed a shower and food. I took a shower and then my mom and Missee came over (with Violet, even though Missee was afraid it would be hard for me to see a baby like Violet). Steve left then and went to Wendy's to get us something to eat. It was so nice to have actual food after so long.
This all happened on a Monday and I didn't go back to work until Thursday or Friday of that same week. I was only about 11 weeks along, not even through the first trimester. After experiencing that I am afraid I wont be able to get pregnant again, or if I do - that I'll have another miscarriage. I guess Steve and I will just have to take that chance.
I woke up that morning and noticed that I was bleeding a lot. I woke up Steve and we drove to the hospital (with me sobbing the entire way). I called work before we left home to leave a message for my boss to let her know I would not be in that day. Once in the ER I had to change into a gown and when I took my pants off more blood fell out (it had been sitting in my garments). That only made me dry harder and Steve went to get someone to help. I called my mom and told her that I was losing the baby and then I couldn't handle talking anymore so I said good-bye and hung up.
They had me have an ultrasound so they could see what was left in the uterus. Then the ER Doctor came and examined me and said that the uterus was closed so they would just have the OB on call check me out and then I could go home. Even though they told me I could go home they wouldn't let me eat or drink anything just in case I needed surgery. My mom and dad came to the ER right after my ultrasound. My dad stayed for about 10-20 minutes and then left to go back to work.
The OB came in and saw me and said everything looked good. He checked the ultrasound report and said that it looked like everything was okay so I would be able to go home soon. He also asked me who my OB was and I explained that my OB left her practice to go to the U of U and she was no longer seeing patients (I think she was doing research and or teaching). He told me that he would be my doctor if I wanted to see him. Prior to this I had only seen female OBs and had a thing against seeing a male OB. Dr. Ward changed my mind about that. I really liked him and he is now my OB, even though he is located in Bountiful and I live in Sandy (hopefully the 20 minute drive wont be hard when I'm in labor).
Right before they were going to send me home I sat up in the hospital bed (I had been laying back trying to be as comfortable as possible). I felt a gush of blood coming out and started feeling dizzy. Dr. Ward told me that I looked really pale (a real feat for me as I am usually pale). He decided at that time that (since the bleeding hadn't stopped) I would need a D&C. Luckily I hadn't had anything to eat or drink and the OR had an opening so they could get me in for the surgery within 20 minutes.
I was taken to the OR and put under anesthesia, the next thing I knew I was being moved from the operating table to the hospital bed. They wheeled me to the recovery room where I stayed for a little bit - until I stopped feeling groggy from the anesthesia. Then I was taken to a Same Day Surgery room where Steve and my mom were waiting. Dr. Ward had talked to them after the surgery was completed (and I was still waking up) and told them that there was an orange peel-like thing still in my uterus and that was why I was still bleeding. My body was trying to expel it but since it wouldn't come out I continued to bleed.
After being in the room for a little bit the nurse came in and gave me something to eat (small package of graham crakers) and a drink. Then she asked if I needed to use the bathroom and I did so I got up and walked to the bathroom. Then I got dressed and they let me go home.
When we got home, around 3, there was a basket of flowers on our doorstep from my co-workers (I called my boss while in the ER and let her know what was going on). I walked to the couch and sat down as Steve asked me what I needed. I needed a shower and food. I took a shower and then my mom and Missee came over (with Violet, even though Missee was afraid it would be hard for me to see a baby like Violet). Steve left then and went to Wendy's to get us something to eat. It was so nice to have actual food after so long.
This all happened on a Monday and I didn't go back to work until Thursday or Friday of that same week. I was only about 11 weeks along, not even through the first trimester. After experiencing that I am afraid I wont be able to get pregnant again, or if I do - that I'll have another miscarriage. I guess Steve and I will just have to take that chance.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
I really need to stop watching TLC's "I Didn't Know I was Pregnant"
Late last month I was having symptoms of pregnancy and so I waited to miss my period so I could take a test and find out for sure. Then my period started and I was a little let down. I so want to be pregnant but alas, not yet.
Then I watched a few episodes of TLC's "I Didn't Know I was Pregnant" and it REALLY confused me. Many of the women on the show still had their "period" while pregnant and didn't have any other symptoms. One of the girls even took a pregnancy test that should have been positive but was not. The only excuse that have for that she may have taken the test very late in the day - which could show a false negative. They said the first morning urine is the best to use since it has the most hormones in it.
What if I was currently six months pregnant and not know it? I could just imagine calling my boss, Roxane, and telling her that I can't come in to work today since I just had a baby! I would think that any boss would think the person was lying to get out of working that day. It would be easier to call in dead. ;) It's funny that sometimes on that show the girl has to call her husband/boyfriend/sperm donor to let them know she just had their baby. Calling their family would be very entertaining. I wish I could listen in to those calls.
I can just imagine if someone close to me called to tell me that they just gave birth and they had no clue they were pregnant. If they had no symptoms and didn't gain any weight so you wouldn't think of them being pregnant.
It's an entertaining show though. You should watch it some time.
Then I watched a few episodes of TLC's "I Didn't Know I was Pregnant" and it REALLY confused me. Many of the women on the show still had their "period" while pregnant and didn't have any other symptoms. One of the girls even took a pregnancy test that should have been positive but was not. The only excuse that have for that she may have taken the test very late in the day - which could show a false negative. They said the first morning urine is the best to use since it has the most hormones in it.
What if I was currently six months pregnant and not know it? I could just imagine calling my boss, Roxane, and telling her that I can't come in to work today since I just had a baby! I would think that any boss would think the person was lying to get out of working that day. It would be easier to call in dead. ;) It's funny that sometimes on that show the girl has to call her husband/boyfriend/sperm donor to let them know she just had their baby. Calling their family would be very entertaining. I wish I could listen in to those calls.
I can just imagine if someone close to me called to tell me that they just gave birth and they had no clue they were pregnant. If they had no symptoms and didn't gain any weight so you wouldn't think of them being pregnant.
It's an entertaining show though. You should watch it some time.
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Another girl's night (plus Steve)
Missee and Violet came over tonight for another sleep over. I am in heaven!!
We went to Mimi's Cafe for dinner (YUMM!) and then to Target so I could pick up a prescription and get some treats for tonight. We spent over an hour there! I got my prescription, got a treat (dinner and dessert at Mimi's filled me up too much that I didn't really want anything except raspberry sherbet). We walked around looking at things, somethings Missee wanted to buy and a few things I impulsively bought for Violet (A Princess Tiana - Princess and the Frog - doll, a Princess and the Frog coloring book, and some stickers).
When we got home Missee picked out a movie for us to watch - "The Others" (Nicole Kidman movie) and then after that was over we watched "Hush" (Gwenyth Paltrow, Jessica Lange and Johnathon Schaech). That just got over so Missee let me pick the movie. I picked "The Lake House" (Sandra Bullock and Keanu Reeves).
We just filed out taxes and should be getting our refund soon. When we get our refund we're paying some bills and I'm getting an IPod! My Zune broke a few months ago I was going to get an IPod then but couldn't afford to get one right then. So since then I have had to revert to using my old Sony AM/FM/CD Walkman and........CDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm debating between a 32 or 64 gig IPod Touch, but not sure yet.
We went to Mimi's Cafe for dinner (YUMM!) and then to Target so I could pick up a prescription and get some treats for tonight. We spent over an hour there! I got my prescription, got a treat (dinner and dessert at Mimi's filled me up too much that I didn't really want anything except raspberry sherbet). We walked around looking at things, somethings Missee wanted to buy and a few things I impulsively bought for Violet (A Princess Tiana - Princess and the Frog - doll, a Princess and the Frog coloring book, and some stickers).
When we got home Missee picked out a movie for us to watch - "The Others" (Nicole Kidman movie) and then after that was over we watched "Hush" (Gwenyth Paltrow, Jessica Lange and Johnathon Schaech). That just got over so Missee let me pick the movie. I picked "The Lake House" (Sandra Bullock and Keanu Reeves).
We just filed out taxes and should be getting our refund soon. When we get our refund we're paying some bills and I'm getting an IPod! My Zune broke a few months ago I was going to get an IPod then but couldn't afford to get one right then. So since then I have had to revert to using my old Sony AM/FM/CD Walkman and........CDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm debating between a 32 or 64 gig IPod Touch, but not sure yet.
Friday, February 19, 2010
Long week, even though I only worked four days
This has been a crazy week at work. One of my co-workers was out Tuesday through Thursday and another had today off and all next week too. With only 4 people in our department having one of us gone is a huge thing. So much stuff going on at work, we are sooo busy. I still love my job and my co-workers.
Tonight my sister is coming over for a girls night. We haven't had a girls night with just the two of us for soo long (if we ever have had one - I can't remember). I love my family (including my in-laws).
Tonight my sister is coming over for a girls night. We haven't had a girls night with just the two of us for soo long (if we ever have had one - I can't remember). I love my family (including my in-laws).
Monday, February 15, 2010
It's been awhile.....
Because of computer problems (laptop's cord stopped working and I had to wait to get a new one) I haven't been able to post anything. Now I can!!!
Steve and I just spent this weekend in Idaho with his sister's family. We visited Carrie, Tim, Daniel and the newborn twins James and William. Steve and I got to hold babies A LOT!!! I loved it and it made my baby hungriness a little bit worse. Carrie and Tim have both threatened not to let us go home since we are helping them a lot. Daniel and Hunter have been playing a lot but last night Hunter got overwhelmed with Daniel. Every time Hunter tried to sit down and relax Daniel would sit on him, climb on top to hug him, or do something else that annoyed Hunter. If Carrie asked Daniel to leave Hunter alone for a little bit Daniel would start crying. It was soo cute! I felt bad for Hunter though, he's not used to having someone try to spend every waking second with him trying to play with him, sit on him, or annoy him.
Driggs Idaho is such a small town, I don't think I could survive living in such a small town. Carrie and Tim love it. My mom's best friend, Louise, lives in Terreton Idaho which is even smaller than Driggs. I enjoy living in such a big town. I love living within 10 minutes of a mall, movie theater, grocery store, gas station, work, and the freeway. My mom could live in a small town, but my dad wouldn't be able to so they wont ever move to a small town.
Steve and I just spent this weekend in Idaho with his sister's family. We visited Carrie, Tim, Daniel and the newborn twins James and William. Steve and I got to hold babies A LOT!!! I loved it and it made my baby hungriness a little bit worse. Carrie and Tim have both threatened not to let us go home since we are helping them a lot. Daniel and Hunter have been playing a lot but last night Hunter got overwhelmed with Daniel. Every time Hunter tried to sit down and relax Daniel would sit on him, climb on top to hug him, or do something else that annoyed Hunter. If Carrie asked Daniel to leave Hunter alone for a little bit Daniel would start crying. It was soo cute! I felt bad for Hunter though, he's not used to having someone try to spend every waking second with him trying to play with him, sit on him, or annoy him.
Driggs Idaho is such a small town, I don't think I could survive living in such a small town. Carrie and Tim love it. My mom's best friend, Louise, lives in Terreton Idaho which is even smaller than Driggs. I enjoy living in such a big town. I love living within 10 minutes of a mall, movie theater, grocery store, gas station, work, and the freeway. My mom could live in a small town, but my dad wouldn't be able to so they wont ever move to a small town.
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