Two years (warning - may be disturbing)

Two years ago today, I spent most of the day in the ER at Lakeview Hospital. Two years and 1 day ago I was pregnant with my first child, the next day I wasn't. It was a very hard thing for me to go through. I almost bled to death and they were going to give me a transfusion but they didn't have to (luckily).

I woke up that morning and noticed that I was bleeding a lot. I woke up Steve and we drove to the hospital (with me sobbing the entire way). I called work before we left home to leave a message for my boss to let her know I would not be in that day. Once in the ER I had to change into a gown and when I took my pants off more blood fell out (it had been sitting in my garments). That only made me dry harder and Steve went to get someone to help. I called my mom and told her that I was losing the baby and then I couldn't handle talking anymore so I said good-bye and hung up.

They had me have an ultrasound so they could see what was left in the uterus. Then the ER Doctor came and examined me and said that the uterus was closed so they would just have the OB on call check me out and then I could go home. Even though they told me I could go home they wouldn't let me eat or drink anything just in case I needed surgery. My mom and dad came to the ER right after my ultrasound. My dad stayed for about 10-20 minutes and then left to go back to work.

The OB came in and saw me and said everything looked good. He checked the ultrasound report and said that it looked like everything was okay so I would be able to go home soon. He also asked me who my OB was and I explained that my OB left her practice to go to the U of U and she was no longer seeing patients (I think she was doing research and or teaching). He told me that he would be my doctor if I wanted to see him. Prior to this I had only seen female OBs and had a thing against seeing a male OB. Dr. Ward changed my mind about that. I really liked him and he is now my OB, even though he is located in Bountiful and I live in Sandy (hopefully the 20 minute drive wont be hard when I'm in labor).

Right before they were going to send me home I sat up in the hospital bed (I had been laying back trying to be as comfortable as possible). I felt a gush of blood coming out and started feeling dizzy. Dr. Ward told me that I looked really pale (a real feat for me as I am usually pale). He decided at that time that (since the bleeding hadn't stopped) I would need a D&C. Luckily I hadn't had anything to eat or drink and the OR had an opening so they could get me in for the surgery within 20 minutes.

I was taken to the OR and put under anesthesia, the next thing I knew I was being moved from the operating table to the hospital bed. They wheeled me to the recovery room where I stayed for a little bit - until I stopped feeling groggy from the anesthesia. Then I was taken to a Same Day Surgery room where Steve and my mom were waiting. Dr. Ward had talked to them after the surgery was completed (and I was still waking up) and told them that there was an orange peel-like thing still in my uterus and that was why I was still bleeding. My body was trying to expel it but since it wouldn't come out I continued to bleed.

After being in the room for a little bit the nurse came in and gave me something to eat (small package of graham crakers) and a drink. Then she asked if I needed to use the bathroom and I did so I got up and walked to the bathroom. Then I got dressed and they let me go home.

When we got home, around 3, there was a basket of flowers on our doorstep from my co-workers (I called my boss while in the ER and let her know what was going on). I walked to the couch and sat down as Steve asked me what I needed. I needed a shower and food. I took a shower and then my mom and Missee came over (with Violet, even though Missee was afraid it would be hard for me to see a baby like Violet). Steve left then and went to Wendy's to get us something to eat. It was so nice to have actual food after so long.

This all happened on a Monday and I didn't go back to work until Thursday or Friday of that same week. I was only about 11 weeks along, not even through the first trimester. After experiencing that I am afraid I wont be able to get pregnant again, or if I do - that I'll have another miscarriage. I guess Steve and I will just have to take that chance.

I really need to stop watching TLC's "I Didn't Know I was Pregnant"

Late last month I was having symptoms of pregnancy and so I waited to miss my period so I could take a test and find out for sure. Then my period started and I was a little let down. I so want to be pregnant but alas, not yet.

Then I watched a few episodes of TLC's "I Didn't Know I was Pregnant" and it REALLY confused me. Many of the women on the show still had their "period" while pregnant and didn't have any other symptoms. One of the girls even took a pregnancy test that should have been positive but was not. The only excuse that have for that she may have taken the test very late in the day - which could show a false negative. They said the first morning urine is the best to use since it has the most hormones in it.

What if I was currently six months pregnant and not know it? I could just imagine calling my boss, Roxane, and telling her that I can't come in to work today since I just had a baby! I would think that any boss would think the person was lying to get out of working that day. It would be easier to call in dead. ;) It's funny that sometimes on that show the girl has to call her husband/boyfriend/sperm donor to let them know she just had their baby. Calling their family would be very entertaining. I wish I could listen in to those calls.

I can just imagine if someone close to me called to tell me that they just gave birth and they had no clue they were pregnant. If they had no symptoms and didn't gain any weight so you wouldn't think of them being pregnant.

It's an entertaining show though. You should watch it some time.

Another girl's night (plus Steve)

Missee and Violet came over tonight for another sleep over. I am in heaven!!

We went to Mimi's Cafe for dinner (YUMM!) and then to Target so I could pick up a prescription and get some treats for tonight. We spent over an hour there! I got my prescription, got a treat (dinner and dessert at Mimi's filled me up too much that I didn't really want anything except raspberry sherbet). We walked around looking at things, somethings Missee wanted to buy and a few things I impulsively bought for Violet (A Princess Tiana - Princess and the Frog - doll, a Princess and the Frog coloring book, and some stickers).
When we got home Missee picked out a movie for us to watch - "The Others" (Nicole Kidman movie) and then after that was over we watched "Hush" (Gwenyth Paltrow, Jessica Lange and Johnathon Schaech). That just got over so Missee let me pick the movie. I picked "The Lake House" (Sandra Bullock and Keanu Reeves).

We just filed out taxes and should be getting our refund soon. When we get our refund we're paying some bills and I'm getting an IPod! My Zune broke a few months ago I was going to get an IPod then but couldn't afford to get one right then. So since then I have had to revert to using my old Sony AM/FM/CD Walkman and........CDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm debating between a 32 or 64 gig IPod Touch, but not sure yet.

Long week, even though I only worked four days

This has been a crazy week at work. One of my co-workers was out Tuesday through Thursday and another had today off and all next week too. With only 4 people in our department having one of us gone is a huge thing. So much stuff going on at work, we are sooo busy. I still love my job and my co-workers.
Tonight my sister is coming over for a girls night. We haven't had a girls night with just the two of us for soo long (if we ever have had one - I can't remember). I love my family (including my in-laws).

It's been awhile.....

Because of computer problems (laptop's cord stopped working and I had to wait to get a new one) I haven't been able to post anything. Now I can!!!

Steve and I just spent this weekend in Idaho with his sister's family. We visited Carrie, Tim, Daniel and the newborn twins James and William. Steve and I got to hold babies A LOT!!! I loved it and it made my baby hungriness a little bit worse. Carrie and Tim have both threatened not to let us go home since we are helping them a lot. Daniel and Hunter have been playing a lot but last night Hunter got overwhelmed with Daniel. Every time Hunter tried to sit down and relax Daniel would sit on him, climb on top to hug him, or do something else that annoyed Hunter. If Carrie asked Daniel to leave Hunter alone for a little bit Daniel would start crying. It was soo cute! I felt bad for Hunter though, he's not used to having someone try to spend every waking second with him trying to play with him, sit on him, or annoy him.

Driggs Idaho is such a small town, I don't think I could survive living in such a small town. Carrie and Tim love it. My mom's best friend, Louise, lives in Terreton Idaho which is even smaller than Driggs. I enjoy living in such a big town. I love living within 10 minutes of a mall, movie theater, grocery store, gas station, work, and the freeway. My mom could live in a small town, but my dad wouldn't be able to so they wont ever move to a small town.

A funny thing that happened tonight.....

Steve and I spent part of the day at my parent's house with my sister and her friend. We watched "Twilight" and talked, it was so much fun.

Steve and I left around 8 and since we had been gone the whole day I decided to get the mail. I noticed that I had something from my OB/GYN's office and it looked like a check. I was excited thinking of getting some extra money. The check was for $0.03! It cost about 10 times more than that to mail the dang thing to us. I figured that I didn't need to be in a rush to cash it since it was for a small amount and so I don't think that I will cash it. The teller gets paid more money in the time it takes to cash the check than the check is actually worth. I really don't need the money, especially since it's not even close to being a dollar. At least I could buy something off the dollar menu at McDonald's or Burger King. I can't even find a penny gumball machine so I could get three gumballs.

At least it made me laugh.

They are finally here!!!

I've been slacking on my blog. I really need to post more often but I forget and get busy with other things in life, like.....Scouts, physical therapy, work, family.
My sister-in-law, Carrie, just gave birth this afternoon to twin boys, James and William. James was 6 lbs. and 9 oz. and William was 4 lbs. and 11 oz. Steve and I just tripled the amount of nephews we have on his side of the family. We went from only Daniel to Daniel and his two baby brothers. My mother-in-law and Father-in-law, Dale and Babara, just doubled the amount of grandkids they currently have. I am so excited for Carrie and Tim. Carrie and the boys should be home in time for us to see them on Thanksgiving. Steven and I decided to split our time spending Thanksgiving with family in three. Last year we spent with my family, this year with Tim and Carrie and next year with Steve's parents. That way Hunter will get a chance to go to a different place every time we have him for Thanksgiving. We get Hunter for Thanksgiving on the years that end in an even number.
I can't wait to go up for Thanksgiving and be able to see the babies. There will be so many people there that it may be difficult to be able to spend a lot of time with either of them. The twins are doing very well and within a few hours of being born were in the room with Carrie and she was trying to breastfeed them. I am so thankful that they arrived before we got up there and that both of them are healthy.
Now....I wonder who will be the next couple to have a child. On my side of the family I have a divorced sister who is not planning on any more kids right now, a sister-in-law who has had a hysterectomy and a sister-in-law that is done having kids. On Steve's side of the family he has another sister who is currently not planning on having any kids, but his younger brother and his wife are probably going to start trying soon.
So...unless Steve and I are next my guess would be Brad and Camille will be the next to have a kid.